Thursday, December 29, 2005

What kind of a blogger are you?!!

Hi All,

Came across this interesting test on another blogger's page(Miranda) and got my results as below...why don't you also give it a try!

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Chicken Little

The movie is cute and like all kid movies …it leaves a message both for the kids and their parents. For the kids- to always believe in themselves even when the whole world is against them. And for the parents-to always have and show faith in their children as it can make a world of difference to their lives.

The animated chicken little made a very cute cartoon character(one that I have added to my list of favs). It was nice to see the kids in the hall around me clapping when the chicken hero proved the world wrong about his incapabilities.

Though I did wonder for the first half an hour if I have made a mistake by coming for a movie meant for the end of it I felt it was a decent amount of entertainment.I personally loved Madagascar a lot more..

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Sense and sensitivity

Being sensible is important but being sensitive..if not more it IS just as important in life. Somewhere in a bid to grow into matured, successful, smart individuals..we unlearn this lesson in life.

I would like to bring it back to my conscience again.....

I started being very sensible with my parents...studied hard..achieved some part of my dream..made my parents proud...proud BUT NOT HAPPY. In a bid to live upto their expectations..I forgot that they too needed to be cared for..they too have feelings, hopes, desires and ambitions..aspects that may not be related to me that I was comfortably oblivios to.

I was being very sensible with my boss and worked day n nite like an ass...and forgot he has an ego that needs to be satisfied..he cares abt my results but he ALSO cares (infact more)abt whether I acknowledge his existence...

I concentrated totally on my career and thot I needed to put my relnship behind...and SCREWED it in the bargain! I did the sensible thing but stopped showing sensitivity towards the one guy who meant the world to me.

They says better late than happy I realised it but I only hope it's not TOO LATE fr me to make up.

Friday, December 09, 2005

Five People you meet in heaven...

Ok I am sic of having this pic on my homepage....I mean watching it and grinning is one thing but having it forever is like a pain....

I read Five People You Meet in heaven....first of all the book's title is isn't about five people YOU (as in anybody)meets in heaven....which I am sure caused the book to be so popular...but 5 people the narrator meets in heaven.

What one gets touched about in the book is how sometimes we dont realise the complete reality of situations and blame our near/dear ones for what they did to us. Sometimes we carry such grudges to our graves...never to realise what was the real cause behind somebody's unjustified behaviour...may belife was unjust to them.

Also, I liked in particular the part where the narrator meets with his wife in heaven....and realises how painful it was to live without her for so many years. Also she was with him for a short span in heaven...and the pain of knowing that she will disappear soon...was bad.

The book awakens you to the realisation that those who are precious to us ...whom we sometimes take forgranted during our lifetime .....will go away one day.

Life will end one day and we should LIVE it while we are there, we need to embrace every moment of it...and try to bring smiles to those who are dear to us. Things that we crib about could have been much worse than this. So be thankful for what you have and try and live a happier life.

Friday, November 18, 2005


Don't blame me guys...u asked for it!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Like Humans do

Like Humans Do

For millions of years, In millions of homes
A man loved a woman, A child it was born
It learned how to hurt and it learned how to cry
Like Humans Do
I'm breathin in
I'm breathin out
So slip inside this funky house
Dishes in the sink
The TV's in repair
Don't look at the floor
Don't go up the stairs

I'm achin
I'm shakin
I'm breakin
Like Humans Do

I work & I sleep & I dance & I'm dead
I'm eatin, I'm laughin & I'm lovin myself
We're eatin off plates & and we kiss with our tongue
Like Humans Do

I'm breathin in
I'm breathin out
So slip inside this funky house
Dishes in the sink
The TV's in repair
Don't look at the floor
Don't go up the stairs

I'm achin
I'm shakin
I'm breakin
Like Humans Do putting these lyrics here for no particular reason except that I guess I like the feel of this song....

Saturday, October 08, 2005

My first earthquake alone....

Today I experienced the first earthquake of my life when I was all by myself in my house ( coz i stay alone ). The thrill of this incident was something else....

When the tremors came..I was taking out clothes from my almirah and thought I weighed down too heavily upon it and hence it was shaking. For 30secs I tried holding it and making the thing stable...but ofcourse it wouldnt behave...and then suddenly I heard ppl screaming outside.."earthquake..earthquake". And then started the series of dilemnas I had to face...I was in my pyjamas and couldn't decide if I should run out like I DECIDED to grab a towl...then I wondered what if I am rendered homeless and if I should carry some dough..DECIDED otherwise...and then it occurred to me if I die atleast I shud be able to inform my parents and bid them adieu.... so I grabbed my mobile,....also thought what if ppl enter my house while I am lying dead outside and find my lingerie strewn all I locked my house and FINALLY raaaaan downstairs for dear life....

By then things had already settled down and it was too late to die I guess...the thrill was good as long as it lasted..and frankly it left me exhausted with the no of decisions I had to take in those 120 seconds... ;-)

Monday, October 03, 2005

Cindrella Man

Cindrella Man- The movie is touching, more than any I have seen in the past one year. Really liked watching Russel Crowe in action…

The movie definitely has a message…a message that urges you to ‘FIGHTBACK’ in life…and not give up on your beliefs and values in the worst of times. What’s important is to be MENTALLY TOUGH and not let anybody in this world ANYBODY to bog you down with their own notions of truth/reality.

Also, I could so identify with the way Crowe was so passionate about his game (the way I am about my work). His passion actually stemmed from something very basic-hunger/bid to survive…for me that drive is basic too and that is my freedom.

I also loved the way Crowe chooses to respond to people’s attempt to brainwash him by calling Boxing a killer game and him a murderer. Instead of getting sentimental and giving up, he again countered strongly with his reasoning. The anticlimax to that situation was very interesting.

In many ways the movie reminded me of another beautiful work ‘Life is beautiful’. It’s a must watch!

Friday, September 23, 2005

..Give up

If you do not realise the importance of what you have, but you know that you don't and yet you can't help it. I think then its better to just give it up, if not for anything else, to NOT disrespect something that you know is important enough.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005


Sometimes I wonder why I struggle so it worth all the pain, my bid to get that which I feel is the BEST for it worth taking life so I so wary of getting less than what I deserve that I am not able to enjoy that which is with me....

Thursday, August 25, 2005

For all my blog frens....

This is one's for all of you who come visiting my blog..!
Keep shining!

Sunday, August 14, 2005 random...

I close my eyes...and rest my head behind..
I smell smoke and taste salt in my mouth..the taste of my tears..
I can hear him talk..the words fall on my ears..some bounce back other seep in..I ignore..he stops singing..he didn't mean to upset me.

I remember things..wonder where I went wrong..why I went that way..somebody claps for him..he searches for the face, acknowledges, continues..his music, music that's killing me softly..words that speak of my story in some ways...the story that everyone knows and yet nobody, including me...

I take out my pen, I wanna write..the story goes on..the music goes goes on! I hear grinding, I hear guitar..I don't wanna stop, I don't have to. Am not writing to be read...nor being empathised, yet I want these words to exist..exist in my space..the space that belongs to me.

I look at people..a family, they are laughing at jokes. no matter how silly...wanna leave everything..go far..start afresh...
...fresh like the morning that has no past..wanna see faces that don't judge me..that let me be the way I am..the way I wanna be!

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Happy Independence Day!!

A very Happy Independence Day to all my Indian friends!!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

My space!

I have moved into my small cozy new house today...a house of my own...and I absolutely adore it! It's has all that I need and it's there only for me!! Above everything it is my space and it is my freedom to be what I AM. Now I can go home without the worries /obligations of having to smile at a lousy roomie..I can cook and eat what I want..I can watch the channel of my choice on the tv and play the music as loud(weekends) or as low( while dozing off) as I want!
To put it simply....

'Am lovin it! tara ta ta tara'

Sunday, August 07, 2005

The Interpreter

Can't say abt the movie but the promos must be really good that they drove me to watch it without caring abt the reviews!

Well this is all I have to say abt it:

Alright first I will talk about the things that I liked abt the movie...I think Nicole Kidman was looking awesome...she's lost a lot of weight and I loved watching Sean Penn too but guess thats abt all I liked.

Am sorry guys but I cudnt enjoy it otherwise! the movie was too heavy..too complicated..and except for a few moments when it gets really intense n all ( when all the heroes of the movie are together in one bus and something's abt to happen ) was very average! Much below my expectations ppl...that's all.

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Take Each Day....

Living each day to the fullest. To me this mostly translates as striking a balance in life...balance between work and home, between personal pursuits and family expectations, between keeping fit and indulging and yes between personal values and societal norms. If we can achieve this balance in life and maintain it during our lifetime..we have lived to the fullest!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Choti si asha...

Dil hai chota sa..
choti si aasha,
masti bhare man ki,
bholi si asha..

Asmano main udne ki asha..
chand taaron ko choone ki aasha..

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

About my dear blog fren-Minerva

A few things I feel are true about my dear blog fren-Minerva
(and are not evident from her blog)

Hi Minerva, hope you don't get angry with this.

1. She likes to sing ( but may not do it publicly)
2. She doesn't wish to be very popular.
3. She has her own meaning of 'Success'. Success for her is a very relative term and for her its a personal definition of this word that would give her satisfaction. For her, being successful would include happiness in personal, professional and spiritual front.
4. She likes somebody who's not close to her.
5. She has 2-3 good friends who are close to her and who she really cherishes. She tries not 2 be mean to others .
6. She's not very fond of food.
7. She doesn't go by the public opinion of people/events/books etc.
8. She's above average in studies(may be better).
9. Her height is about 5 2"
10.She's a kind soul( kinder than she knows she is!)

Lemme know how much of the above is true...

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Anti climax!

It's amazing how crudely judgemental we sometimes get, of the people we love and who are/were an essential part of our lives. A lot of our problems/miseries and confusions in life could be resloved if we begin accepting ppl as they are. That is not to say that we should tolerate bad/unjust behaviour but lets accept that a person who has habitually been a certan way cant be changed overnight....blah blah blah..blah...

I can't bear to forgive...coz am NOT GREAT and it gives me more satisfaction to blame a person who has been so bad to me. May the ASSHOLE go to hell!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

It's Time..

Time to move on and leave the past behind,
it's good to keep memories; better to discard which plague the mind,

The world lies ahead of me, waiting to be explored,
don't jes lie dead , scared of being abhorred.
Be happy my soul- smile, laugh and shine,
this life belongs to me and its thrills are all mine

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Feeling bad...are you?

If you ever feel ashamed of something that you may have done in the past..jes know that it's okay. Feel bad about it, curse yourself if you want but also remember at the back of your head that feeling ashamed is a positive feeling. It means you are aware of your mistakes and if to no one else you have acknowledged the wrong to your own conscience.Feel bad but also feel good that you are on your way to being a better individual, more aware of self and humble enough to realise your mistakes.

Friday, July 01, 2005

Happennings in my life lately…

Have started reading again…after a long time and I absolutely love the time spent in solitude with jes me and the things that I like to do(read/paint/write/make collages/long walks alone..). Its like going into a different space. Don’t wanna ever stop now.

Started caring more for parents and family. Have been spending more and more time with them especially mom. I understand her (she tells me), like nobody. I can feel her pain abt things..things which I can help and those which I can’t. I wanna see her happy, want to help her achieve her dreams which are still ALIVE in her.. those that she couldn’t achieve when she could have (because the time was right for her) but the circumstances weren’t. Its my personal goal to help her achieve a part of this in the coming 6 months and guess what.. I am already on my way..

Have lost weight. I feel more fit and yes definitely lighter!

Am moving to a new role in the same organization. I was being appreciated abt my efforts in making my unit one of the best in the country. ( Have got this trait from my mom I guess.. the undying need to be noticed for my hard be somebody..). But the handover is painful, to the new recruit in my place. Coz this office was being set up by my baby..

Now that I have summarized things..well it does feel good. Guess I am going in the right direction…Would love to continue.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

When you love something/someone it makes u weak...

An excerpt from 'Fountainhead', about why Dominique wants to stay in solitude..

'If I found a project, an idea or a person I wanted-I'd have to depend on the whole world. Everything has strings leading to everything else. We're all so tied together, we're in a net, the net is waiting and we're pushed into it by one single desire. You want a thing and its precious to you. Do you know who's standing ready to tear it out of your hands? You can't know, it may be so involved and so far away but someone is ready and you are afraid of them all. And you cringe and you crawl and you beg and you accept them-just so they'll let you keep it.'

Jes thought of putting it here as I found it deep.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Hiyaaaa everybody!!


I am totally engrossed these days in this book which most of my class mates read when they were in school...but me thinks the book is timeless and I absolutely adore it- 'Fountainhead' by Ayn Rand.

I am half way through it and everytime I start reading I jes can't put it down..and yet when I notice the number of pages I have read I get disappointed that it would finish soon!

The story revolves around our hero 'Howard Roark, Architect'.. the man really ROCKS, his indifference towards people he doesn't like( rather can't like), who he thinks aren't even worthy of his disapproval or hatred. He's jes plain...mute to them.

I was talking to my mom abt the book and trying to explain her what's it about...I said 'It's about those people who are too good for their times or those who are so good that an average person either doesn't understand them or fails to appreciate them' and in my mind I was thinking 'Jes like me' and then suddenly I heard ma saying 'jes like me' and then my bro who was over hearing echoed 'yeah man...JUST LIKE ME...'

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Why ?

Why is that my hardwork is not recognised, despite my sincerest efforts...
Why is it that my most beloved people sometimes don't trust me...
Why is that I find life meaningless so often..
Why is it that I am not able to decide...
Why is it that I can't remain without being judgmental about situations...
Why is it that its difficult for me to like too many people..
Why is that I feel its okay to think about yourself and be selfish , if you aren't hurting others or being unfair...
Why is it that I feel guilty about my beliefs and my decisions..

Is there a test to get to know if you are a bad soul, if you need to drastically change yourself..

Isn't life meaningless if I can't make those who are close to me happy, if I can't bring smiles to their faces, if I can't earn their trust...

Thursday, June 16, 2005


Parineeta is a love story set in the Kolkatta ( India) of 1960�s.

Saw the movie, first day- last show. It lives upto its expectations.
The movie has such beautifully depicted subtle romance between Saif Ali Khan and the new girl ( can�t recall her name), that it touches a chord somewhere.

I absolutely adore Saif in the movie. The guy is becoming handsome by the day.
The new girl has done a good job too.

�Parineeta� has 1960�s Kolkatta, captured in a lot of detail. The clothes they wear, their houses, the Vintage cars and the night club ( called Moulin Rouge) where the girls wear Sarees and go.

And yes I loved the song with Saif travelling in a train which could only belong to that era. The wooden interiors � its steam engine hissing through the lush green surroundings�.. leaves the viewer totally lost in the era and the movie.

By the way, any comments on Mr. and Mrs Smith? I am planning to watch it soon�reviews would be most welcome!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Bunty Aur Babli- A BUBBLY movie!!

MUSIC : 8/10
To begin with the movie has very peppy numbers. Kajra re , kajra re is an unusual 'item number', if you could call it that! Aishwarya looks cute in the number. The theme song � Bunty aur Babli� also has foot tapping music.

I especially liked the clothes that Rani is wearing. Over all very colorful outfits

PLOT: 4/10
The story hasn�t been worked upon at all. It is an obvious inspiration of �Catch Me if you can� but the script writer hasn�t gone through the trouble of explaining how Bunty and Babli go about conning ppl ( they are only shown running from one place to another wt ppl trying to get hold of them). Any details how that was happening is left to the audience�s imagination.

CAST: 9/10
Loved the onscreen chemistry of decent boy Abhishek Bachhan and bubbly, naughty Rani.

OVERALL- enjoyable but please leave home any expectations that you may have and then try watching's good entertainment otherwise.

Monday, June 06, 2005

To all my blog friends....

Resting in peace...!

..hey not literally..atleast not yet!

Was down with Viral, last three days and so I took a nice long break from work..blissfully coughed my way thru the nights not bothered abt what was happenning at work for once!

Actually, I was driving myself crazy past few months. Sometimes I feel my physical energy levels just can't match upto my mental energy..I have a thousand things on my mind and a dozen creative ways to do all of them...a thousand clothes to buy and a dozen shades in many authors I have been wanting to read..( I am currently reading three books together- Fountain Head, The Alchemist and Malgudi Days!!)....
Maybe life thought..I was getting too much out of it..more than my share maybe so I was made to fall flat on my bed with nothing better to do than to sneeze, cough and shiver in the cold( with the temperature soaring 42 degrees otherwise!!)
But guess what, I had fun doing that as well! I watched Tv to my heart's content, listened to my fav music, played Pictionary and Monopoly with family and am back at work today...with more energy to do a lot more!

Friday, May 27, 2005

I wonder.....

I often find myself wondering about a lot of crazy things...and one fav subject is that of 'GOD'....

I wonder if God exists. If he does then why did he make misery and pain? Did he do that to make us realise the value of happiness? If yes, then why is it that some ppl are miserable most of the times and that too because of factors that they couldnt have done much about (poverty/culture/country/gender) and others happier because of things that they never did ( inherited riches/better genes/beauty/etc).

Agreed a poor man can be happy too and so can be some one less talented but isnt a 'happy rich' happier than a 'happy poor'? I dunno why...more often than not I dont get convinced by the conventional concept of God.

Yes, I do believe in the 'goodness of life'. I believe that 'what ever goes around comes around', I believe that hard work pays off..sooner or later, I believe that a genuine man lives a better life than a crooked one, I believe that the little happiness you spread around multiplies and comes back to u....

Can this belief of mine be called 'God'?

I also believe that its okay to lie if its for a 'just' cause, its okay to listen to your heart sometimes or maybe most of the times, its okay to be selfish sometimes, its okay to do things that do not confirm to the universal 'rights', its okay to NOT be able to live upto somebody's faith if you would be unfaithful to yourself by doing that, sometimes if you can justify to yourself things that you can't justify to others or maybe to anybody in this world...its okay.

In essence, I am saying that things that dont hurt my conscience are okay with me...and that's probably 'God' for me.

Does that mean my 'God' is different from yours? Does it mean every individial has a 'God' of his own....could we then define 'God' as every individual's sense of 'righteousness'?

Is that why we say 'God exists within us'......I wonder...

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Life's calling..where are you?

..if u have seen the smirn off ad..its by far the most amazing creative piece I have seen on air..and yes definitely very inspiring..

Monday, May 23, 2005

High on life...

Was happily busy last weekend attending the 2 day workshop on Assessments.Learnt so much in these 2 days. It was about this psychometric test ( 16 PF) that maps your entire personality ( 16 traits ) and puts in front of you a mirror image of self..
I can actually counsel ppl based on their answers..(yehoo!)

I will be certified in the renowned test soon..16PF ( 5th edition) from Oxford Psychometric me a great feeling!!

Actually i was a part of the workshop conducted by my organisation..was responsible for organising the whole thins actually..had been working hard on it for almost a month. It went off very tonnes of appreciation mails today frm all...(double yehoo!)

Now that its over, am sooooo tired..'happily tired' :-))...jes the way i feel after my strenuous workout every morning ..the sweat on my body is not irritating for once..
GIVES ME A HIGH like none other..

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Woooow...innocent promised, I have one of his best pics on my blog today!!

....There's always a positive and brighter side to things..things that we didn't's not always possible to control our circumstances..during such times one should make the best of whatever they have..

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

John Admirehim.....;-)

I was jes going thru one of the blogs..and read somewhere abt how somebody dislikes John Abraham..

So I jes thot of jotting down a few things I adore about the guy:

His brains..not brawn (like his witty responses to qs put to him by the media..)

His sensibility AND sensitivity ( loved his comments for the older women at Koffee with Karan..i.e. Zeenat Amaan and Hema Malini)

His love for parents ( exhausted his earnings in a house that he bought for is touching..)

Down to earth (he's up there and yet when he appeared on the Vir Sanghvi show he was shy like a guy whom nobody had seen or whom nobody admired..who didn't have millions of fans..)

Sense of control.. he looks so much in control of his life..and patient with his ambitions..(looks like a control freak to me..)

Love that man...he deserves a lot more than what he has today!!
Way to go John!
Will try an post a pic of his soon....

Friday, May 13, 2005

this is so true...

Am in this mood rite now..sittin in office..half way thru the day...any suggestions what to do..

Frens are for keeps..

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Songs that I love..

There’s a hero..if u look inside your heart you don’t have to be afraid of who you are…there’s an answer…

Ruk Jana nahi…
.............Tu kahin haar ke.. kaanton se chalke milenge saaye bahaar ke..‘shaam suhaani ban jaate hain din intezaar ke’( my fav line)

I believe I can fly
..I believe I can touch the sky..think abt it every night n day..

(Beautiful voice..lovely lyrics..)

Heal the world…
.....Make it a better place for you and for me…and the entire human race….
(love humming it)

I hate everything abt u…
(I love the song in a very funny way actually…jes love the lyrics..)

Beautiful Girl..stay with me….

Hungry eyes..One look at you…n I can’t describe 've got hungry eyes…

..chiquitita you and I cry….but the Sun is stealing the sky and shining above you…
..try once more like you did before..sing a new song chiquitita….
( it’s as if ABBA is singing to me…talking to me…nudging me to get and do better)

The winner takes it all…loser standing small..besides the victory..that’s her destiny….
( love the pain in her voice)

Ab na jaa…pyaar ki yeh raat hai..ab na jaa..choti si ye rate hain ab na jaa…

Tera Mera Pyaar sanam…waada hai kabhi hoga na kam…
( lovely duet..the only song in which I like phalguni’s voice…)

Bulla ki jaana main koun…
( I like the attitude with which this guy sings..and though I don’t really understand the entire thing but the song implies that he’s a nobody…)

How do u do…
( Love the way it begins…) I see you comb your hair..

Dil hoom hoom kare….tadpaye…( Rudaali)

lots more...later...

the world that we desire..

"The world you desire can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours."

These words are worth reading a hundred times over..and this is why i believe it's important for all of us to have dreams..dreams that sound may appear 'impractical', 'ridiculous' or unachievable.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

about relationships and love..

I feel there’s something technically wrong with the phrase ‘falling in love’..being in love is a conscious effort…but yes falling out of love happens on its own….

Also, I guess one shares a unique chemistry with every other person in this world. One cannot compare any two relationships bw any 2 indivs..jes like life has made each one of us so different from the other, similarly the kind of relationship that each one shares with the other is one of it’s kind in this world.

I saw this beautiful and (yet very tragic) movie some time back ‘Monster’…the relationship between the lady and her ‘girl’ friend..was a unique and beautiful one..and yet it ended tragically…but the depth with which the emotions of the heroine are depicted for her friend was the most touching thing I have seen lately…

It’s amazing how love could fill your life with so much and how it’s absence could you leave you so broken and empty.
It’s a powerful emotion…and could control a lot..unless one is strong enuf..

so much to write..

am so excited abt creating my own blog..that i can't help but write..have so much to share much..and guess what there's no body to stop me here..yehoooo!

my entry into the blog world...

am feelin' good about creating this..wanna add lots and lots actually....
the way i feel abt ppl abt life..abt things..about rights..about wrongs..

have always had an unconventional approach towards looking at things and have always believed in myself..and stood by myself no matter what..have sometimes approved of the most disapproved of things that ppl do..have also done the opposite....guess that's why ..i am zombie..