Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Sometimes I wonder why I struggle so much..is it worth all the pain, my bid to get that which I feel is the BEST for me...is it worth taking life so seriously...am I so wary of getting less than what I deserve that I am not able to enjoy that which is with me....
Posted by Ruchika at 10:27 AM
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Sunday, August 14, 2005
I close my eyes...and rest my head behind..
I smell smoke and taste salt in my mouth..the taste of my tears..
I can hear him talk..the words fall on my ears..some bounce back other seep in..I ignore..he stops singing..he didn't mean to upset me.
I remember things..wonder where I went wrong..why I went that way..somebody claps for him..he searches for the face, acknowledges, continues..his music, music that's killing me softly..words that speak of my story in some ways...the story that everyone knows and yet nobody, including me...
I take out my pen, I wanna write..the story goes on..the music goes on..life goes on! I hear grinding, I hear guitar..I don't wanna stop, I don't have to. Am not writing to be read...nor being empathised, yet I want these words to exist..exist in my space..the space that belongs to me.
I look at people..a family, they are laughing at jokes. no matter how silly...wanna leave everything..go far..start afresh...
...fresh like the morning that has no past..wanna see faces that don't judge me..that let me be the way I am..the way I wanna be!
Posted by Ruchika at 9:01 AM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
I have moved into my small cozy new house today...a house of my own...and I absolutely adore it! It's has all that I need and it's there only for me!! Above everything it is my space and it is my freedom to be what I AM. Now I can go home without the worries /obligations of having to smile at a lousy roomie..I can cook and eat what I want..I can watch the channel of my choice on the tv and play the music as loud(weekends) or as low( while dozing off) as I want!
To put it simply....
'Am lovin it! tara ta ta tara'
Posted by Ruchika at 5:48 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Can't say abt the movie but the promos must be really good that they drove me to watch it without caring abt the reviews!
Well this is all I have to say abt it:
Alright first I will talk about the things that I liked abt the movie...I think Nicole Kidman was looking awesome...she's lost a lot of weight and I loved watching Sean Penn too but guess thats abt all I liked.
Am sorry guys but I cudnt enjoy it otherwise! the movie was too heavy..too complicated..and except for a few moments when it gets really intense n all ( when all the heroes of the movie are together in one bus and something's abt to happen )..it was very average! Much below my expectations ppl...that's all.
Posted by Ruchika at 4:01 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Living each day to the fullest. To me this mostly translates as striking a balance in life...balance between work and home, between personal pursuits and family expectations, between keeping fit and indulging and yes between personal values and societal norms. If we can achieve this balance in life and maintain it during our lifetime..we have lived to the fullest!
Posted by Ruchika at 12:46 PM