Sunday, December 02, 2007


Whenever I have sat down and spoken to my mother - I get amazed at what all she has been through and how she endured it all. It hasn't changed her as a person - it has only made her wiser. How she stood by my father despite all that he did to her.

If I were her I would have divorced him years ago. The more I hear about what all she has faced - the more sceptical I get of the whole concept of marriage. Though divorce is a solution available - it may not be the best thing to do - especially not in the generation of which she's a part.

All I can do is thank her for bearing with it all - not letting any of it affect our lives - leading us, her kids, to live normal lives and helping us become what we are today.

Dad has changed as a person today - she's happy with him now but obviously she paid a heavy price for it through the years.

This then leads me to wonder

- should you get into a marriage at all if you don't know the person well enough from before? (her's was an arranged marriage)

- shouldn't both partners be independent financially? (she was dependent on him and may have thought of separation if she weren't)

- is it best to try and make it work because not only are you securing the lives of those you have brought into this world(your kids) but also your own happiness?

Robot factory

It's funny how when you are a part of an organisation - they try and rob you off all your originality and want to see you acting/behaving/talking/reacting/working like the rest of them.

I am not here to ape anyone, am here to deliver results. When I as an individual am ready to work for an organisation that doesn't necesarily match my philosophy and vision in every way then why should they expect the same from me?

I am not violating rules. I drive myself crazy trying to give everything my best and not because I expect some sort of a trophy in return but because it gives me satisfaction.

If you can't appreciate that, the least you can do is not ask me to shed my personality - that consitutes what I am, that drives me and that which defines me. And if you do then - screw you!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

what do you do...

What do you do:

when you realise there's hardly any difference between you and a person you most despise,

when you know that you are setting yourself up for faliure but you have no choice,

when your simplicity is mistaken as lack of common sense,

when you become the wrong path for someone and right path for someone wrong,

when life doesn't seem as precious,

when smiles become a luxury,

when you give up and give in,

when everything seems like a facade.. can't articulate any longer what you are going through.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Fair play

Being in a position where you have to be fair/ unfair to people is a very tough place to be. How well you perform in this role makes people respect you like nothing else does in this world.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

N 73

I bought a new phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's so much fun..I have downloaded my fav's a music edition and it can store 1500 songs!!

It also says the name of the person who's calling you..

It's hands-free has music controls and it comes with a 2 GB memory card!

Am all smiles :D !!!

heh heh...this is like an advertisement :)

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle.

You know that love isn't like a greeting card...

Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.

You are the best of both worlds

Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.

Almost any guy can find balance with you.

I have always wanted to know this..

You Are 22% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

Am I an Alpha female?

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way.
You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

This is what I wrote for this girl I admire in office...

Was it compassion,
Or was it funny that she smiled;
Was she really happy,
Or was it something she tried to hide.

Gets lost in her creative pursuits,
Structured on the outside,
An artist at the roots.

She could goof up
And make it look fine;
She could faulter,
And yet never cross the line.

A head above her shoulders,
Emotions under boulders;
She moves on in life..
Lucky he would be to whom she would be wife! :)

She could kill with her looks,
But she'd rather drown in books;
She could intimidate,
But she'd rather put it straight.

She giggles for a while,
And regains composure like she never lost it;
A child at heart..a woman in body
It'd seem natural even if she flaunted !

Sunday, July 08, 2007

What the shit...

Guess I have forgotten how to write anything blog seems to be full of meaningless posts..and the last one...YUCK....crappy...

Friday, January 19, 2007

Have faith..

Awaiting a lot of developments in my life in the near future. Some of them have already come about and a lot of others soon will. All of them will be for the better. I know it, am sure about it and I know I will be happier and content with the choices I would have made.

* It's okay to learn from experience.
* It's alright to learn things the hard way, helps you being more convinced about your present.
* You can be proven wrong about your notions and you should be glad that you learnt you were mistaken, otherwise you would have lived in doubt about that wrong, all your life.
* On the other hand, sometimes it gives immense satisfaction to learn that you were right in sticking to your stand and being stubborn about it coz in the end that was the best thing for you to do.

What I am trying to say in effect is:

It's perfectly fine to have faith in your beliefs, no matter how bizarre they sound at that moment. If you are right in believing them, you will feel good about having your own mind work for you rather than going by a readymade set of solutions. IF you were wrong, you'd be convinced about the correct course of action for the right reasons and you will follow it with far more conviction.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Happy 2007!!

Went on a looong vacation..met up so many of my dearest and old frens...there have been developments :-) beginning to move on!

A couple of lessons:

*Life doesnt become happenning on it's own. You have to go and reach out to it and really explore.
*No matter how strong frenships are, there can still be misunderstandings and those misunderstandings can still be cleared and that's when your relnship goes on to the next level and that's when you now how much more can there be to life than u knew.
*My sister's the sweetest sister in the whole wide world!
*I can catch up with old frens through orkut after more than a decade n then be best of buddies all over again :-)
*I can still think creatively and intelligently in one go..
*And..there are tones of beautiful people yet to be met up with in life..and that's when it becomes more colorful!
*People don't always have to make an effort to like me :-)
*Opus in Blore is the most happenning place i have been to in the last 6 months!
*You can spend most of your vacation without doing any of what you really planned to do and yet feel good abt it.
*Delhi is not as bad as I always thought it to be...the roads are a luxury, the people are the easiest to relate to and there are frens here whom I would really miss if I were to move out of here!