Thursday, October 07, 2010


..all I want is to stop before I totally lose it...

..pockets can be emptied..more difficult to empty your heart..

..should I stop caring just because you think you can handle it..

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Sunday, September 05, 2010

what's wrong.. being a parasite?

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

Tubercular abscess - my experience

Since I have experienced this first hand now, let me get into the details of what goes on with a TB patient for the benefit of anyone who needs to know more.

Cold Abscess

I have a Tubercular abscess, also called a ‘cold abscess’ which has formed along my spine(D10 and D11 vertebrae). It is a soft tissue growth which is affecting my backbone in one area. Luckily in my case, it was detected early (three months since the onset), otherwise a cold abscess could go unnoticed for very long and by the time it is discovered, it has caused considerable damage. The bacteria eats the bones away and leads to pus formation in the affected area. TB of the spine is most difficult to get detected as it doesn’t cause any visible harm until quite sometime.

How does it happen?

People with low immunity who lead a bad lifestyle and have a poor diet are the one's who gt affected. A very common source for this infection is poultry products (milk could be a potential carrier). Apparently, a lot of people have TB bacteria in their system but they become active only when people develop very low immunity levels.


The treatment goes on for about a year to year and half. The kit usually prescribed for this is AKT-4 (consisting of 4 tablets) and for the first two weeks of the treatment the patient's life can go completely topsy turvey. The dosage is given as per the patient’s weight.

Surprisingly my doctor asked me to continue leading a normal life and even allowed me to attend work. This was bad advise. During the first two weeks I experienced nausea, vomiting sensation, loss of appetite, fever in the evenings, shivering, drowsiness and constipation(caused by pain killers). I had severe pain in the nights when my back would get completely ‘locked’ leaving me almost paralysed. The bacteria are supposed to become troublesome at night when the rest of body muscles are relaxing. I used to try and avoid taking pain killers for the fear of constipation but then after a few days I gave in as it is inhuman to make yourself go through pain of that severity. I also fainted once due to severe acidity caused by the medication. So make sure you check with your physician whether he has prescribed ample antacids to you (mine did not!).

My advise to anyone who starts this treatment would be to take it easy in the first ten days if you are working. Keep yourself physically active otherwise, but do not punish your body by forcing it to follow a normal routine.

How to speed up recovery?

A healthy diet is the fastest way to get your body to respond to these medicines. I have been eating lots of salad, one to two apples and a glass of milk with muesli as a part of my diet. Other than that one wouldn't feel hungry anyways as there is total loss of appetite. I am not allowed to eat any fried food (as it can further pressurise your liver which is very weak due to medication).

NO drinking (again to save your liver) and no smoking as advised by doctor.

It has been 3 weeks since I am taking this treatment now. The doctors say my body is responding well. One of the doctors I consulted(a neuro-surgeon) suggested I get the pus drained (by a CT guided aspiration) but then radiologist who examined me negated the need to do so. The pain has reduced substantially now but of course I can't miss a single dose lest I make my body immune to such bacteria and cause myself irreparable damage! phew...

I will try to link this to related websites on the net. My sympathies with anyone who's going through anything similar. Pl Be brave and feel free to write here for any queries..

Totally love this song...

and though I was sceptical about this movie it turned out to be a lot of fun! Life is truly meant to be lived and loved.........

Thursday, March 25, 2010

If God Will Send His Angels...

Nobody else here baby no one else here to blame
No one to point the finger...
It's just you and me and the rain
Nobody made you do it, no one put words in your mouth
Nobody here taking orders when love took a train heading south
It's the blind leading the blond
It's the stuff the stuff of country songs

Would everything be alright?

U2 is too good....What an amazing song! I never get tired of listening to's been with me through out..