Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Dont want to think lest I realise,
I haven't heard myself..I have tried to be wise.
Don't want to think, lest I blurt,
What I truly wanted and which really hurts.
Don't want to think, lest I fall apart,
All that I sacrificed ....
became lost art.
Dont want to hear, lest I listen,
the silent tears that don't glisten
Dont want to hear that noise screaming,
Dont want to see..
Dont want to taste..
Dont want to feel because feelings betray.
Thursday, February 02, 2012
Since when did I stop expressing myself when I didn't like something? I can't really recall, but it started after marriage and oddly this didn't happen at home as much as it did at work. Was it insecurity? Perhaps I couldn't bear the thought of being out of job. But that's how it has been with me ever since I started earning. So what was it that told me to shut up and bear whatever undeserving negativity that came my way?
I can't become a spectator in my own show. Anything is better than that ...even being a joker!
I am going to take that man's happiness tomorrow and everyday until I have to deal with him. Bullies can't be set right with polite words. They need to be shown their place when ever they get nasty and perhaps even when they don't until they understand where they actually stand.
Wednesday, February 01, 2012
I really think I was born to be a tragedy queen. No matter what the circumstances I manage to make myself miserable. I have had an awesome life till now..been lucky in so many aspects. Fell in love twice..have seen so much beauty. Yet I only crib about what I don't have. I am almost certain that if I had been at the place where I imagined myself to be originally...I wd have still managed to make myself unhappy. Its me...I am the problem. I need to see a shrink!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Jhooth wale kahin se kahin badh gaye..aur main tha ke sach bolta reh gaya..
Aandhiyon ke iraade tho acche na the..ye diya kaise jalta hua reh gaya.
Aate aate mera naam sa reh gaya..uske hoton pe kuch kaanpta reh gaya..