Sunday, March 05, 2017

Feeling Crazy

When I look at people posting glorious pictures of their workstations and work travels, I go crazy. A part of me wants to say 'so what' and then this feeling-left-out side of me says 'what the heck are you doing running behind your two year old in your pyjamas all day?'. And then yet another part of me says 'BORING!'. You have done it for twelve bloody years and know how limiting it is, how defined, how absolutely frustrating and devoid of creativity all of that shit is. You know how everyone goes through the exact same thing, the same silly meaningless discussions with your boss that make no sense whatsoever and are mostly not intellectually stimulating. How you keep waiting for that one opportunity to prove yourself and then once you have done it, you are asked to repeat it and then repeat it with a greater efficiency and then with suave and then with less resources and then without upsetting a single soul on this earth and then...... You know exactly how it goes. Here you are creating something unique, something you know is needed out there, something for which there IS a market and you are immersed in self-doubt. Go crazy but go crazy working on it. Test yourself. Prove your mettle to yourself for a change :)

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